Lilies in the window, I’m homesick for an old self. This city does not give you much time to grieve your past lives. An accelerated state of becoming.
‘An Accelerated State of Becoming’ was born In Brooklyn, NY at the end of a brutally hot and emotional summer. It was my first time writing and recording my own music - finally reaching out for that childhood dream. ‘Lilies in the Window’ was the beginning of it all, homesick and spiraling out on my bed in my little bedroom In Bed Stuy. All I had was my laptop and a pair of headphones. But in less than a minute, I felt restored and stable.
I ended up leaving New York not even five months after arriving there. But my music, hearing what I could make, opened up so many doors of possibility. It offered me clarity. It offered me perspective. And since writing my first song, I’ve been many different people. Grown and outgrown myself over and over again in the short span of two years. I feel like I’m going so fast that I can’t even keep up with myself.
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It often times feels like prophecy. I don’t always know why I’m writing what I’m writing, only for the circumstance to reveal itself later on. Sometimes I write to relieve the pressure in my chest, heart, and head. But the “best” ones always come like a fire. Feverish in the middle of the night, like a surge of electricity moving my body and soul where I need to go.
These three offerings are part of an ongoing project to release an EP. Something that terrifies me, but also feels necessary to create.
I hope they speak to you.